You do want love but you're afraid things will turn against you like the previous times. Dear I feel you, I understand your concern, and that you don't wanna lose yourself all again. It takes you to trust one right person, and all these doubts will be diminished and eliminated..

Love heals, it doesn't break nor shatters your heart.
What actually shatters is, the absence of love, the lack of it.
That's why we should be loving ourselves, for when others do not love us, or stop loving us, ourself will do the job, and prevent that pain and shattering from happening.

They all taught us to hate ourselves, our thoughts and our mistakes, our flaws and our realities.. and we became so good at it in a way we refused the love given to us.

You have to start loving yourself, so you can feel all the love the world is trying to give you.