Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I'm not going to make it, but you laugh inside — remembering all the times you've felt that way

 If you're lonely when you're alone, you're in bad company.

 I exist, that is all

, and I find it nauseating

 Our trust in love was broken plenty of times. So give your lover space, give them time and comfort..

For this life is tough,
And to trust again is hard,

And to love again is harder & tougher..

You do want love but you're afraid things will turn against you like the previous times. Dear I feel you, I understand your concern, and that you don't wanna lose yourself all again. It takes you to trust one right person, and all these doubts will be diminished and eliminated..

Love heals, it doesn't break nor shatters your heart.
What actually shatters is, the absence of love, the lack of it.
That's why we should be loving ourselves, for when others do not love us, or stop loving us, ourself will do the job, and prevent that pain and shattering from happening.

They all taught us to hate ourselves, our thoughts and our mistakes, our flaws and our realities.. and we became so good at it in a way we refused the love given to us.

You have to start loving yourself, so you can feel all the love the world is trying to give you.

 "Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing in the world force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us. And as hard as it is, we have to let them go. Life is hard enough without being around people who bring you down, and as much as you care, you can’t destroy yourself for the sake of someone else. You have to make your wellbeing a priority. Whether that means breaking up with someone you care about, loving a family member from a distance, letting go of a friend, or removing yourself from a situation that feels painful — you have every right to leave and create a safer space for yourself."

 “and all I want is to heal, 

to grow again and remedy my scars. 

What an elegant touch 'healing' has 

on the human soul!”